Sister's Christmas Present

I picked up my grandmother for Christmas dinner tonight (I know it's Dec 28, but that's how we do it here).  She told me that she got my sister $ for Christmas.  My sister didn't visit at all over the holidays not to my or anyone else's surprise.

Anyway, I advised to my grandmother that that wasn't a good idea for the obvious reason that the money would fuel the lifestyle that we all disagree with.  Anyway this got me thinking about alternative gifts.  It proved challenging since anything given could possibly be sold.  I suggested that she pay off some of her college debt.

*Digression*
Since my sister dropped out of college my parent told her that the debt that was assumed by our parents was her responsibility.  Legally speaking, my mother cosigned with her so my mom and my sister are responsible.  The deal had been, you go to college, graduate, and it would be paid for by our parents (I don't know how likely this was to begin with.  I think that I will end up paying my own debt considering my parent's financial condition).  She didn't do it so the debt is hers.

*We're back*
My Grandmother didn't think that would be a good gift. I couldn't think of what would be an alternative that would not be transformed someway into fueling her drug habit, but I did think of another gift:

(The Name is blacked out for obvious reasons)

This is a parody from Seinfeld where George, instead of giving his coworkers actual Christmas gifts, created a fake charity called, "The Human Fund."  It took me all of five minutes to make.  My parents didn't like it very much, but I think it's funny.

What do you think?

Christmas Blues

So, I haven't opened my Christmas gifts yet.  My family minus my sister visited my aunts and I got depressed.  I'm not sure why but I started missing my ex-girlfriend I think.  What I think it is though is that I'm just lonely and I'm worried that her life will turn out better than mine in the long run.

That's a weird yet real fear of mine that my ex's end up better off than me in the future.  Am I alone in this fear?  Am I the only one driven to try for fear of not being as successful as someone that I was intimate with?

I'd appreciate everyone's insight

Merry Christmas

It's 12:09 and I haven't yet looked at what I got.  There is no special reason why I haven't gone and unwrapped my presents.  I'm usually unenthusiastic about holidays, so I generally avoid all the traditions.  The only tradition I like which we didn't celebrate correctly this year is getting the tree.  

The two previous Christmases we scrambled to get the tree.  We'd put it off until Christmas Eve, at night and drive from tree place to tree place hoping to find one open.  My dad gets angry and we all poke fun at him (my dad is always angry).  This year we got the tree with little difficulty early... Oh Well.

Anyway I asked for 2 pairs of shoes, one for running one for, "walking around" as I described it, and a belt.  Other than those things I have no idea what to expect.  I would be content with just receiving them since I am an aspiring minimalist.  I'm too lazy to put in the effort to sell off my stuff, therefore I can only claim to be an aspiring minimalist.

I think life is easier when you own less things.  There is less to worry about.  And everything looks cleaner.  Your room cannot be messy if you don't have anything in it.

Last night we went to a Christmas party my mom and dad and I.  It about 5-10 old people (50s-60s) and me.  I drank a little and participated a bit in the conversation which is unusual for me, I guess I have some Christmas spirit after all.